Book Review: Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls (2015) by Lynn Weingarten

Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls (2015) by Lynn Weingarten

The synopsis goes like this: They say Delia burned herself to death in her father’s shed. They sat it was suicide. But June doesn’t believe it. June and Delia used to be best friends in that way that comes before everyone else – before guys, before family. It was like being in love, except more. They had an infinite number of secrets, tying them together like thin silk cords. “Secrets tie you together”, Delia often say to June.

But one night a year ago, everything changed. June, Delia and June’s boyfriend, Ryan, were just having a little fun. Their good time got out of hand. An in the cold blue light of morning, June knew only this – things would never be the same again. Now Delia is dead. June is certain she was murdered. And she owes it to her to find out the truth… which is far more complicated that she ever could have imagined… That’s it, as for the rest of the story, read this book… or… maybe you should consider first…

Suicide, pressure, broken family, relationship issues, BGR and sexually confused are popular themes nowadays. Have you watched or read Gone Girl? A bit of that element though. How about 13 Reasons Why book or series? Sort of like that but a bit less. Besides Nicholas Spark’s novels I seldom read on romance and much less about suicide (oh I love mystery and action novels). Why I picked up this book? I’m not sure. Storyline perhaps. Nice book cover, of course. Or I’m just curious about girl-and-girl relationship. Maybe all of the above. I like this book because of its twisted plot and intense in almost all pages. This book kept me guessing (though all of my predictions are almost right) and somewhat shocking conclusion (but not surprise). What I don’t like is… well, this book can be shorter, contain lots of vulgar language and this lesbian-best-friend-ism (spoiler!) make me uncomfortable…

But then again, maybe an uncomfortable book is good something :)

THINK BIG. START SMALL. GO DEEP.

10 Minutes Reading Before Commit Suicide...

Life has no meaning, no purpose, and no future, so why continue to endure its extreme unhappiness, anguish, hopelessness, and despair? This is the mind of someone who has exhausted all possible options, no way out they said. No other except... suicide... Are you the one whom I describe as above? If yes, this is for you. If tonight, today you have decided to do it, I plea to you to make another consideration... this is for you.

You might be a victim of depression, tortured with feelings of unworthiness, sin and failure, deep guilt, and the need to be punished... suicide seems to be the only way... anger, envy, jealousy, fear, guilt, self-pity, sexual deviation, drugs, alcohol, deep disappointments, the death of the loved one, a divorce (either yourself, someone close to you or your parent), loss of employment, loss of health etc. It's been a long time, in fact, reflect to childhood memories. Nobody understands you, even when you share this with somebody, they seem to ignore your feeling... “They have their own problems, why should I add to theirs", you said. "You are not me!” you shout in your inner voice.

Maybe you threaten suicide in mind to get attention and sympathy... that’s not your points... it goes much deeper... either you or I decided for suicide or not... we all want someone to listen to our hurt and frustrations; but now, you see, you need it most. Before you make this decision, you're worry; dislikes, hates, rejects yourselves; unsure of either this is right or wrong, think that you’re lose, the world hates you and you done hurting yourselves... it doesn’t work anyone, "I want to put this to an end.”

"Why me?"

"Nobody understands!"

"How could 'they' do this to me?!"

"Live or die, I’m useless..."

You can add to this... for you know better than I do...

Consider this now, darling, brother, sister, son, daughter, friend... THERE'S HOPE. Although I didn't meet you personally, I'm convinces that the ULTIMATE problem for any person's life is separation from God. After a long reading, the word 'God' seem to be hateful, alien and most avoided in your life now... this very minute... because if He exist or care at all, then why... why... I don't know... this I must confess and so does everyone around you.

But I got a suggestion: cry, plea your case, kneel and PRAY.

One more time... kneel and pray... I beg you!

Jesus Christ said, "Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads and I will give you rest. Take my yoke and put it on you, and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble in spirit; and you will find rest. For the yoke I will give you is easy, and the load I will put on you is light" (Matthew 11:28-30).

Believe me, He understand your situations. He had been through much deeper hurt than this to redeem our ‘burden’. Ask Him to intervene, there’s HOPE! Come... will you change your mind now?

(P.s: This is the 1st and most important step. There are more, of course.)

THINK BIG. START SMALL. GO DEEP.